My Shadowed Self

 

“We tremble with the violence of the conflict within us,—of the definite with the indefinite—of the substance with the shadow.”
— Edgar Allan Poe

 

I speak a lot about shadow and the parts of us we don’t want to face. I believe that if we don’t give voice to our own hidden depths that we will never be able to live a realized life. I have fought myself as much as anyone and ended up bruised and battered on a regular basis. Yet somehow either through fantasy or creating art or through seeing the worst parts of myself emerging during times of relationship stress those parts have come through. We all contain multitudes and I know there are still parts that have not yet found their voice and as with most of us they are often the parts that scream the loudest. The most heartening thing is that I no longer fear that inner shadow. I know that I cannot control it and it will emerge when it will. I have learned tho that seeking to reign it in gives it strength and while I cannot control my shadow, it cannot control me either. I have to learn to acknowledge it and coexist and to not fear it. For that way I will know myself and so better actualize my existence.
Blessings, G

 

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A Face From the AbyssA Face From the Abyss by G A Rosenberg

 

Spear ExpansionSpear Expansion by G A Rosenberg

 

Entertaining Strangers

 

“The purpose of poetry is to remind us
how difficult it is to remain just one person,
for our house is open, there are no keys in the doors,
and invisible guests come in and out at will.”
— Czesław Miłosz

 

The stranger in my mind was there again or maybe it was someone else. I never know who I’ll meet in there.
One claimed to be a god worshipped long ago. He offered to grant me powers and visions of my journey Another was a little girl crying for her mother.One took comfort and the other gave peace. Which was which you may guess.
There was a writer seeking dreams and a doctor seeking patience. Only one was satisfied.
The angry young man protested the injustice of his life and the judge gave her hard wise wisdom.
The goddess gave succour and the god gave wild dreams.
The business man had a drink and the begger gave him a dollar.
They come and they go parading past the mirror that shows my reflection.
An entire company of one.
Blessings, G

 

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Facing the Easier StormFacing the Easier Storm by G A Rosenberg

 

Fractal Melted in the RainFractal Melted in the Rain by G A Rosenberg

 

Shadow Pool (Redux)

 

Gaze into the depths
Within the shadowed ripples
something may gaze back

 

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Shadow Pool (Redux)Shadow Pool by G A Rosenberg

 

Telling The Story

 

“We are, as a species, addicted to story. Even when the body goes to sleep, the mind stays up all night, telling itself stories.”
— Jonathan Gottschall

 

Once upon a time…
You should have been there…
Well I’ll tell you..
At a party..
In the forest…
In the desert…
I met..
I saw..
I was visited by..
I loved every moment
I hated it
Never Again..
If I ever have the chance..
I ran like hell…
then when I thought it was over…
BAM…
yes how was I to know..?
I should have known..?
We made love on the beach..
We talked until dawn..
I walked away..
I never..
He said…
She wouldn’t..
and then I returned..
an then I woke up..
and then She left..
Changed.
— G A Rosenberg

 

We are transformed by the stories we hear, the stories we tell and the stories we tell ourselves. Perhaps, at essence we are story that we make up as we go along and live as we make it up.
Blessings, G

 

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She Had Hidden DepthsShe Had Hidden Depths by G A Rosenberg

 

14-LerajeLeraje (#14 in Goetia series) by G A Rosenberg

 

Holding the Attention — A List

 

“Tell me what you pay attention to and I will tell you who you are.”
— Jose Ortega y Gasset

 

My attention tends to shift amidst many different areas and I never know which facet of my being will come into play. Here are some of the things that tend to capture it these days:

 

      • Whispered words and Loud conversations
      • How the light falls on the leaves – Light in general and darkness and the interplay between the two
      • People’s hearts – People’s eyes, spirits and stories as well.
      • My Family
      • Art- Both creating my own and enjoying that of others. Favourites: Dali, Escher. Alex Grey, Austin Osman Spare, Caravaggio, Vincent Van Gogh, Bosch, and lots of others including that of many friends on Tumbler and Face Book.
      • Bad Jokes and Good Wordplay- I love playing with language and making it dance.
      • Books- Favourite writers are Charles deLint, Spider Robinson, Aleister Crowley, Austin Osman Spare, Michael W. Ford, Robert Anton Wilson, Ken Wilber,Neil Gaiman and an almost endless list of others.
      • Archetypes-Myths, Legends, Songs and of course Comics.
      • Music– Of all kinds. My tastes tend to change and evolve. Some favourites currently and perennially: ELP, Queen, Behemoth, Metallica, Neil Young, Dana Owens (Queen Latifah), Watain, Bob Marley, Animals as Leaders, Walk Off the Earth, Acherontas, Postmodern Jukebox, Emme Ya and again I could keep going endlessly
      • People’s conceptions of the universe. I prefer to hear people’s unique takes on spirit as opposed to prepackaged ideas that they gained either at their parent’s knee or their latest conversion. I want to hear the kernel of truth that I believe each of us carries within.These days my studies have taken me more towards the goetia and left-hand path topics tho I am always interested in hearing and discovering truths as each person knows them.

I am always interested in learning more about the people who read this blog. Feel free to share what captures and holds your attention these days
Blessings, G

 

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Questions Asked and AnsweredQuestions Asked and Answered by G A Rosenberg

 

Galactic Building BlocksBuilding Blocks Towards A Cosmic Fractal by G A Rosenberg

Killing Time at the Crossroads (Redux)

 

Killing the stillness
Passages and passengers
stopped in slow life

 

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Killing Time at the Crossroads (Redux)Killing Time at the Crossroads by G A Rosenberg

 

Come With Me Inside My Universe

 

“And I realize that no matter where I am, whether in a little room full of thought, or in this endless universe of stars and mountains, it’s all in my mind.”
— Jack Kerouac

 

My mind encompasses the world I’ve seen, the world I’ve yet to see and everything that I can imagine. There are gods and demons, heroes and villains and everything in between. We may all be crazy here and that helps but then the world can be a crazy place where sanity is more and more arbitrarily defined. Is it lonely inside my head? Not really I have all of you in here with me or my perceptions of you anyway. It’s easy to be lonely in a crowd but then there are always connections to be made. It is all a matter of choice. Travel with me for awhile and learn the universes you carry inside. The view won’t look exactly the same but then it never is. Remember tho, that you carry it with you always or perhaps it carries you so the more you understand what you contain, the more it can flourish.

Blessings, G

 
 

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AhrimanAhriman by G A Rosenberg

 

Field TheoryField Theory by G A Rosenberg

 

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